Jude. I can hardly say his name without feeling my heart want to burst. His bright white hair, dark skin, beautiful blue eyes and infectious smile…he really is my little dream boat.
This dream of a boy however is my more high maintenance child. He cries, a lot. For what I never really know. It’s mostly that once he hasn’t gotten what he wants, he’s off a cliff he can’t seem to come back from. The tantrum lasts an hour, crying about anything and everything. Hand him the moon, a cookie, a trip to disneyland, etc….boyfriend doesn’t care. Jude’s main objective at that point is to prove to you how perfectly mad he is and he does a real good job at it.
I spent a good portion of this week frustrated, angry & impatient with him but mostly myself. Why can’t I get this kid in check? Is it normal, is it just being almost two or is it me? It has to be me right?!
I sat down to write this to say how exhausting this little boy is then I looked through my phone to collect the pictures from my week and I see all of this. The moment I sang to him ‘Hey Jude’ and he sang ‘na na na na’ with me then fell asleep. The afternoon we rode our bikes to the grocery store and he was pointing at the world around he yelled ‘birdie! trees! go mom!’ The other night when we went to the carnival and his face lit up at all the people, sights and rides. And finally ice cream on the porch with his brother where he leaned his head on Quinn’s shoulder and said ‘more please!’ There isn’t one image of a tantrum, although there were plenty trust me.
And this is why I take pictures of the happy, the lovely, the wonderful. It doesn’t mean that my life isn’t full of disappointments, trial and sadness. It just means I don’t want those memories ingrained in my mind forever. I’m choosing to capture, celebrate and share the happy moments because it makes the sad and difficult moments fade and I’m left counting my blessings instead of longing for something I don’t have.
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