I peeked back into the archives and realized I haven’t written a FRYday post since November! How did that happen? I’m feeling rusty, but let’s dive right in, shall we? Late last year, about the time we took a FRYday Holiday hiatus, I found myself back in therapy after several years. It’s funny because when I say that word, I can tell almost immediately who’s a fellow therapy-goer and who’s not. The Goer is like “That’s great! How is it going?” and the Non-Goer kind of winces and pulls in air through their teeth, ”Ssss. Are you okay?” I forget that it’s not a part of a lot of people’s lives, and for many it doesn’t need to be, they can figure it out on their own.
For me, my grandmother has been a therapist since I can remember, my parents encouraged and sometimes demanded that we all have someone to talk to, it was like part of my self-upkeep. My roots are showing, get a weave. My insides feel like a mess, go to therapy. So there I was, sitting on The Couch, listening to an echoing of something I’ve had to be reminded of my whole life. “You are enough.” You are good enough. You are intelligent, and kind, and lovable. You are worth it, you are worthy.
These feelings of inadequacy, they are so real in my life. I hate them, but out they come like weeds in a flower bed. They are a battle I fight everyday. Thankfully it doesn’t stop me from trying, but it sure is scrappy. When my thoughts drift, it’s always to the moments where I’ve come up short. With my man, in my home, in my community, with my loved ones. But especially for my boys. I’m certain I’ll never feel worthy to be a mother to such amazing little guys and the times I fail them is enough to make me sick and it often does.
But, every time I read those words “You are enough” I get choked up. And it’s not because I don’t believe it, it’s because I’ve forgotten. Somewhere along the way I convince myself that I am only as good as my worst moments. Do you do this too? Let me be the first to remind you: YOU are enough, too. We are the combination of all the good and hard, the inspiring and frustrating and no amount of either changes who we are and our worth. Being enough doesn’t mean I’ll stop trying… it means I won’t stop loving myself when I struggle. That right there might be my lifelong goal.
xo,
Emily
Find all of Emily’s FRyday thoughts here, and Nicole and Jenna’s here too.
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• It might be perfect timing considering the nature of today’s post, but Emily will be sitting in and fielding all the Q&A and discussions on an upcoming FREE! Positive Parenting webinar (a conference call + screen share) on March 26th at 9 pm EST. Sign up to join us right here, but here’s a quick summary on what to expect:
“Tired of the yelling? Tired of the whining? Tired of being tired?
You’re not alone. From toddler temper-tantrums to teenage talking back, parents wonder what it takes to get kids to cooperate. If you’re tired of nagging, reminding and yelling to get kids to listen – this session is for you! Small Fry is excited to partner with Amy McCready, founder of Positive Parenting Solutions & TODAY Show contributor to offer a FREE LIVE training webinar on 3/26/2014 at 9 pm EST. Discover proven tools for your most frustrating discipline dilemmas including the 5 R’s of Fair & Effective Consequences. This hour-long investment will lead to a lifetime of peace in your home! Sign up here.”
• And lastly, we have a Facebook-only giveaway that starts today for you locals! We are so excited about Tumbleweeds Film Festival, a film festival created for kids that is running March 14-16 in SLC! It’s all about fostering the idea of storytelling and creative expression, and we’re so looking forward to taking the boys! Find the schedule here and enter to win 4 tickets on our Facebook page!
